Not going to say it..... but yes, another restless night, blah, blah, blah...... I did actually go and see the doctor last night, hubby's orders. I have pages and pages of advice notes about insomnia, which I will sit and read through today. Loads of relaxation techniques, so I'm hoping they will help a bit. Really don't want to go down the road of sleeping pills though. I just know I'd end up hooked, and I try and avoid medication at all costs. Anyway, she seemed more concerned about the pain I've been in lately and has booked me in for an ultrasound scan to find out what is going on. Yet more worry then. It really is one thing after another at the moment. At least a good thing is me and Nick seem to be getting on better now. I realise now, it would be so hard to lose him. I have so much to be grateful to him for. My whole lifestyle is down to him. I don't mean that in a materialistic way, because I don't need material things to make me happy as long as I have people I love, but I recognise the sacrifices he has made. His job is stressful, but I am so proud of how far he has worked his way up through his company. I always tell him I'm proud of him, and try to encourage him. I just want him to be happy in whatever he does. He could do any job, and I'd support him no matter what. But I do need that support back.

Anyway, back to today.... I'm going to make a few more moulds, have a tidy round, then put my feet up with a coffee and read all this insomnia info. Nearly had Corey off school with a cough and a temperature, but he seemed ok after breakfast so I sent him anyway. He came up to our bed at about 4.30am, and he was roasting. He only ever comes up to our bed if he's feeling ill.

Feel quite peaceful, this morning. I'm looking out across the fields and the weather is really quite pleasant. I may stick on my wellies after and go for a wander through Henning Woods.