I look in the mirror and all I see is blonde hair, make-up and big boobs. Cheap and tacky. The bimbo look is fine on an 18 year old, but I despise it with a passion. I hate it on anyone. HATE IT!! So.... hair appointment is booked for two weeks today, going dark brown and short. And can't wait. Stage two of the new me. :)
Big problems yesterday. I knew as soon as I saw the look on David's face, the pot in the furnace had gone. This is so bloody crap. The fan for the furnace packs in on Wednesday night when no one is around, the alarms malfunction so nobody discovers it until the next day, by which time it's dropped from 1395'C down to 900'C. There was no way that pot was ever going to survive. It's just one thing after another at the moment. The only solution is a new furnace, but £600,000??? I can understand the reluctance. It sucks because I am dying to get into the glass-house. I want to work with hot glass again. I have so many ideas I want to try.
But hey!!!! Glass cutting today!! I can't wait. Done a fabulous design on a bowl that I want to try out. So, so excited. Lol!! Only me would go rushing into work on their day off. It's crazy!! But see where I work and who I work with and all becomes clear..... :)
Otherwise, had a rotten day really yesterday. Kiln playing up again, but fired it regardless, at least I can keep check on it today.... just general day of mishaps. Oh, added to by a friend, going nuts on me. Although, sadly, it would have affected me less if I didn't care about them. Sad really. I must be soft. I think it was childish on both parts. I hate arguing with anyone. It is just such an unecessary waste of time and emotion. Made worse by it being over something so trivial. I think basically, I'm not used to people trying to deliberately upset me. I tend to be mollycoddled a lot. Even by people at work. I'm a lot tougher than people give me credit for. Yes I hurt easily, I'm only human, but I can hold my own, and it is part of the new me, that I am going to say what I feel a lot more. But I reckon it was just a shock to the system to get into that situation. It's different when it's my husband, I can scream and rant for days!! But friends? Nope. Shouldn't be like that. However. Totally over it now. New day and all. I'm not one to hold grudges. THAT would be childish.
So anyway..... I was a touch upset on getting home, obviously I'm still really touchy still at the minute. Nick was worried about me so we decided to get away for a weekend as we both need it, we are both completely on edge and have come closer to splitting recently than I ever want to be again. So booking a weekend in Buckinghamshire in October. He's been amazing this past couple of weeks. And on seeing me get a bit teary last night, he reminded me of all I have achieved in my life considering the odds were stacked against me. Having my daughter at 19. To bring up two kids on not an awful lot of money, to still put myself through uni and get a good mark in my degree whilst being a full time mum, to work right from the start, sometimes having several jobs, and now starting up my own business, which is still in the developmental stages. When he puts it like that, I think, actually, yeah. I should be proud. I always felt I'd missed out on loads, but when the kids have left home we will still be young enough to travel the world and do everything we've dreamed of, and we will have the money to do that. We are both very ambitious people, and Nick is the cleverest person I've ever met. Naturally gifted. Hopefully we'll be in a position to be able to retire early. So that cheered me up. We decided we are going to go away more. I mean, we can afford it, we just need to treat ourselves a bit more often instead of frittering our money away on crap. Nice holidays etc...
Anyhoo..... back to today, just straightening hair then off to work. Yippee!!! :) xx