I know I'm neglecting this. It's just too difficult to fill in right now. Hope to be back to normal in a month or so. Things just too hard to cope with, my simple ordinary life has been rocked to it's core and although I'm surrounded by wonderful friends and family, all I feel at the moment is overwhelming loneliness, from all my own doing. I WILL get through this though and will be back stronger and more determined than ever to make my life the success that I always dreamed of. Where I'll be and what I'll be doing remains to be seen. If I AM still here, then God, things will be different.