One day I will have some chirpy news to write on here, just a very odd time for me at the moment. Had a hard couple of days, far too personal to write about on such a public site (not that I think anyone takes any notice of this for a minute!) but just feeling completely misunderstood, fuelled by a lack of sleep. Trying hard to figure out the direction that I want to take in my life, so have been looking at jobs and property in Cornwall tonight, as it is a lifelong dream of mine to end up there eventually. These past couple of days have got me thinking if now would be the right time to follow this ambition, or am I just being foolish because that is the state of mind I'm in at the moment. Is uprooting the kids at this point in their lives fair? Leaving family and friends behind? Can I even afford it? Maybe I'm just being selfish. I'm just BORED!! Bored with everything at the moment. I lack motivation and enthusiasm and this makes me tetchy. I need space, time out on my own. I'm too young for a midlife crisis Goddammit!!!